Another problem

Okay..
So yea
I'm kinda on my way back to my old self
But now I realized something else is missing.
My time management
My love for music
My passion for being a music director

It seems like now that I am so focused on being a director instead
I left out what I have loved for my whole life
Music.
And yes. I admit.
I completely left it out.
I stopped practicing
I stopped working hard
I stopped everything

And I just realized that when my mom said that
She talked to my teacher
And my teacher told my mom
My scale sucks
My theory is never finish
I never practice the cello
And most of all
I never practice the piano.
My pieces are now suck-ish

How could this be?
I was once the most famous girl for being the best in piano
I was the girl who was honored for being the best in whole Sabah
And what am I now?
Complete failure

And then there's another thing
My grades
Are dropping as well
Like spontaneously!

Seems like I'm so unfocused right now
This is not who I am!

I am the girl who breaks records
I am the girl who wants to be the best
I am the girl who lives her dreams
And I am going to do that once again!
I'm not gonna let anyone disappointed again
Nor I'm gonna let myself fall.

I will not LOSE

XOXO,
Nathalie