Okay...
So i found this below passage from Alex Evans' blog.
And I really think he's right bout it.
"i hate how people tend to expect you to get over things, even serious matters, super quickly. and nothing ever is perfect, so of course there is eventually something you’ll need to get over in every situation. there’s always something somewhere that needs to go wrong. it happens once, then twice, maybe a third time and then you lose the count. and you’re supposed to get over all those things. you know, to move on to something else. i doubt it’s even possible for the human brain to do such a thing. i know, for myself, that it does take me a while to get over something."
So I'm really trying to be deaf now.
Literally
I don't understand why people can be so mean and cruel...
They can say thing bout me like from being cold-blooded, heartless to "tell her don't f*ck lahrx"
What the fish?
What did I ever do to make people say thing bout me like that.
OMIGOSH!!!
Okay, here an example:
The person had a crush on me or some sort
And he didn't know how to "communicate" with me or somehow
So I dunno how to reply him as well
It's not my fault that he couldn't start a conversation
And he told his friend that I'm so "lin c" and "diao gao ga"
I was like what??
Okay... You can say things bout me like that
I don't really care
But telling me friend to tell me "Ask her don't f*&k lahrx" was really over the line!
I wish I can lock myself in a room with loud music
So I wouldn't have to hear what people say or gossip bout me which is so not true
I will ignore these kind of stuffs
Trust me
I will...
And I won't give a damn bout what they say bout me
I will still be me
Love me, hate me?
I don't care!
If you don't like me then just leave
Nobody asked you to stay.
Here's another passage from Alex Evans which I can really relate to.
"it used to be different. i’d pretty much live in ignorance. i’d act as if nothing could ever really reach me. you know this protective shell you tend to build yourself at some point in your life? it makes you feel untouchable. you feel nothing could ever hurt you, and for a while you believe your little trick works. years pass by, and it’s been successful so far, a few times of course you couldn’t help but breakdown over pressure, but in general, your idea works, and pretty well. then you grow up, and realize that all the things you’ve been ignoring, pretending they didn’t affect you, acting as if they never happened, are catching up with you after all. it took a while, but now they’re winning over you. all the things you refused to deal with are right in front of you, and you realize how stupid you’ve been to think the way you did. because obviously, you can’t just pretend that something did not happen when it did. broken hearts, failed friendships, rejection, goals you did not accomplish, money issues. there are several issues. some from years ago, some from months ago, some from weeks ago, and even some from a few days ago, all of which you refused to deal with at the time and decided to ignore instead. all this, running through your mind, feels like you’re going insane. you try to do just what you used to do, ignore it all, but it doesn’t work anymore."
I'm really so confused right now.
=(
XOXO,
Nathalie
So i found this below passage from Alex Evans' blog.
And I really think he's right bout it.
"i hate how people tend to expect you to get over things, even serious matters, super quickly. and nothing ever is perfect, so of course there is eventually something you’ll need to get over in every situation. there’s always something somewhere that needs to go wrong. it happens once, then twice, maybe a third time and then you lose the count. and you’re supposed to get over all those things. you know, to move on to something else. i doubt it’s even possible for the human brain to do such a thing. i know, for myself, that it does take me a while to get over something."
So I'm really trying to be deaf now.
Literally
I don't understand why people can be so mean and cruel...
They can say thing bout me like from being cold-blooded, heartless to "tell her don't f*ck lahrx"
What the fish?
What did I ever do to make people say thing bout me like that.
OMIGOSH!!!
Okay, here an example:
The person had a crush on me or some sort
And he didn't know how to "communicate" with me or somehow
So I dunno how to reply him as well
It's not my fault that he couldn't start a conversation
And he told his friend that I'm so "lin c" and "diao gao ga"
I was like what??
Okay... You can say things bout me like that
I don't really care
But telling me friend to tell me "Ask her don't f*&k lahrx" was really over the line!
I wish I can lock myself in a room with loud music
So I wouldn't have to hear what people say or gossip bout me which is so not true
I will ignore these kind of stuffs
Trust me
I will...
And I won't give a damn bout what they say bout me
I will still be me
Love me, hate me?
I don't care!
If you don't like me then just leave
Nobody asked you to stay.
Here's another passage from Alex Evans which I can really relate to.
"it used to be different. i’d pretty much live in ignorance. i’d act as if nothing could ever really reach me. you know this protective shell you tend to build yourself at some point in your life? it makes you feel untouchable. you feel nothing could ever hurt you, and for a while you believe your little trick works. years pass by, and it’s been successful so far, a few times of course you couldn’t help but breakdown over pressure, but in general, your idea works, and pretty well. then you grow up, and realize that all the things you’ve been ignoring, pretending they didn’t affect you, acting as if they never happened, are catching up with you after all. it took a while, but now they’re winning over you. all the things you refused to deal with are right in front of you, and you realize how stupid you’ve been to think the way you did. because obviously, you can’t just pretend that something did not happen when it did. broken hearts, failed friendships, rejection, goals you did not accomplish, money issues. there are several issues. some from years ago, some from months ago, some from weeks ago, and even some from a few days ago, all of which you refused to deal with at the time and decided to ignore instead. all this, running through your mind, feels like you’re going insane. you try to do just what you used to do, ignore it all, but it doesn’t work anymore."
I'm really so confused right now.
=(
XOXO,
Nathalie
