“Love means exposing yourself to the pain of being hurt, deeply hurt by someone you trust.”
Did I lose my voice? Why can't I just tell you everything I wanted to say? It hurts so bad, keeping all the pain inside my heart. I know I wanted to tell someone, but is there anyone there willing to listen and understand it?
I was awfully quiet at school. I feel like I can actually relate to my own story. Sitting there, at the corner of the class where no one notices me, just staring outside. It's another down pour. How long have I got used to this loneliness? It feels normal to me now. I don't need anyone's accompany, I can just sit there and let my mind wander while staring out the window. Nobody cares, neither do I.
Is it a good thing to get used to loneliness? Will I ever lose myself in it? Will I ever lose the ones I love? If I get used to it, maybe I wouldn't feel like there's a need for someone to love me, or even someone to talk to. I feel myself lost in the crowd. No one noticed me, and I don't mind. This is how I felt.
I feel so... invisible.
It's not that I purposely make myself this way. All my friends are happy with their boy/girlfriend. For me, I don't like to interrupt them and of course, most couples are happy when their on their own right? Don't get me wrong girls (Nic, Shirley and Roanna), I am not saying that you guys neglected me, I would probably stick with my boyfriend too if I were you guys =). I love you all very dearly aight. Don't worry. It's the ones, who calls themselves my friends. So where are you guys?
Out with the bad and in with the good.
Anyone has any idea for me to design my bedroom? -for my new home-. Teehee. I want a mixture of classic, and luxury. Waiting for some ideas!
XOXO,
Nathalie
Did I lose my voice? Why can't I just tell you everything I wanted to say? It hurts so bad, keeping all the pain inside my heart. I know I wanted to tell someone, but is there anyone there willing to listen and understand it?
I was awfully quiet at school. I feel like I can actually relate to my own story. Sitting there, at the corner of the class where no one notices me, just staring outside. It's another down pour. How long have I got used to this loneliness? It feels normal to me now. I don't need anyone's accompany, I can just sit there and let my mind wander while staring out the window. Nobody cares, neither do I.
Is it a good thing to get used to loneliness? Will I ever lose myself in it? Will I ever lose the ones I love? If I get used to it, maybe I wouldn't feel like there's a need for someone to love me, or even someone to talk to. I feel myself lost in the crowd. No one noticed me, and I don't mind. This is how I felt.
I feel so... invisible.
It's not that I purposely make myself this way. All my friends are happy with their boy/girlfriend. For me, I don't like to interrupt them and of course, most couples are happy when their on their own right? Don't get me wrong girls (Nic, Shirley and Roanna), I am not saying that you guys neglected me, I would probably stick with my boyfriend too if I were you guys =). I love you all very dearly aight. Don't worry. It's the ones, who calls themselves my friends. So where are you guys?
Out with the bad and in with the good.
Anyone has any idea for me to design my bedroom? -for my new home-. Teehee. I want a mixture of classic, and luxury. Waiting for some ideas!
XOXO,
Nathalie
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