"How people treat you is their karma; how you react is yours."
What goes around, comes around. Yeah. You believe that? I certainly do.
It's only the 9th day of 2010, and I am already stressing out. School just gets harder each day and time just won't stop. 15 minutes ago, you were having your shower. The next you're on your way to for 3 hours of tuition. The worst part is, I'm stuck with the most annoying person ever! But I guess I just have to endure while I can. I am going to leave soon anyway.
Sigh.
Am I really immune to feelings?
I dunno.
Nowadays, I just feel so empty. School, tuition, sleep, eat, text a while and there goes a day. It's been like this for a week now. I won't say that my feelings towards certain stuffs changed because of that. No. That's not it.
I used to be so sensitive. Everything gets my nerve easily. Even the thought of New Zealand freaks me out. But now, I'm just tired of it. Tired of everything. Come what may. Let it be. Whatever. Those are the things I kept repeating to myself. Sometimes, when I have the time to just sit and think, I realize my relationship is getting colder and colder by the day. Yet, I just said let it be. Until today at tuition. We talked about something that, well, woke me up maybe. Trying to save my relationship now.
Leaving everything behind is gonna be hard. You might be surprise if I'm telling you the person I'm gonna miss the most is my brother. Yes. My brother.
Daniel has been in my life since, well, forever. And every moment we had together is just special and happy. Of course we argue sometimes, every siblings do that. Yet, our bond just got closer by the year. I am not ashamed to say that I love my brother more than anyone in this world. I love my brother more than my parents, more than Aaron, and more than my closest of friends. I never showed that though. I was lying on the bed last night, and I asked myself who am I going to miss the most when I leave. The first person that came on my mind is my brother. And tears followed. I couldn't imagine my life without him. I wish I can bring him along, but I know that he still has to continue his studies here before he can follow me.
Well. Gonna stop for now.
SWEET DAYS MY DEARS
XOXO,
Nathalie
What goes around, comes around. Yeah. You believe that? I certainly do.
It's only the 9th day of 2010, and I am already stressing out. School just gets harder each day and time just won't stop. 15 minutes ago, you were having your shower. The next you're on your way to for 3 hours of tuition. The worst part is, I'm stuck with the most annoying person ever! But I guess I just have to endure while I can. I am going to leave soon anyway.
Sigh.
Am I really immune to feelings?
I dunno.
Nowadays, I just feel so empty. School, tuition, sleep, eat, text a while and there goes a day. It's been like this for a week now. I won't say that my feelings towards certain stuffs changed because of that. No. That's not it.
I used to be so sensitive. Everything gets my nerve easily. Even the thought of New Zealand freaks me out. But now, I'm just tired of it. Tired of everything. Come what may. Let it be. Whatever. Those are the things I kept repeating to myself. Sometimes, when I have the time to just sit and think, I realize my relationship is getting colder and colder by the day. Yet, I just said let it be. Until today at tuition. We talked about something that, well, woke me up maybe. Trying to save my relationship now.
Leaving everything behind is gonna be hard. You might be surprise if I'm telling you the person I'm gonna miss the most is my brother. Yes. My brother.
Daniel has been in my life since, well, forever. And every moment we had together is just special and happy. Of course we argue sometimes, every siblings do that. Yet, our bond just got closer by the year. I am not ashamed to say that I love my brother more than anyone in this world. I love my brother more than my parents, more than Aaron, and more than my closest of friends. I never showed that though. I was lying on the bed last night, and I asked myself who am I going to miss the most when I leave. The first person that came on my mind is my brother. And tears followed. I couldn't imagine my life without him. I wish I can bring him along, but I know that he still has to continue his studies here before he can follow me.
Well. Gonna stop for now.
SWEET DAYS MY DEARS
XOXO,
Nathalie
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