Friday, June 11, 2010

I'm not feeling myself

"Love is like a violin. The music may stop now and then, but the strings remain forever."

Is it happening all over again? Am I losing myself again? Why is it that I've been so emotional lately... Everything I see has a pin in it, everything is a problem. I just got so effed up. I thought a good night sleep would probably freshen myself up, but no matter how much sleep I get, the next morning I get up, I'll wake up crying...

I wonder if anyone still reads my blog, cause even I ignored it for quite a while. Life was perfect few weeks ago, yet everything changed with just a blink of an eye. Nobody knew this but every time when I walk home from school, I cried silently. For no reason. Wake up in the morning, cry in the shower. Going to bed, crying. I may appear perfectly fine to the world but who knows what I'm really feeling inside?

I'm probably stressed out. Probably.

But at this time of my life, I should be sky high. Sky is the limit and nothing can stop me. Yet, I now see myself nothing but a stupid, ignorant girl. I thought by ignoring the mental pain I feel inside can get myself back on track. What I didn't know is the more I ignore, the more and more I got myself hurt.

What in the world has gotten into me? I dunno.

Someone, anyone... Please. Help me.

XOXO,
Nathalie

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