Frustration

"Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future."

Dear blog, thank you for being ever so loyal to me. Especially in times of need. Right now, I couldn't find a decent friend to tell my problems to, there's no one I could look for. I feel so lost. Holding my tears back so hard right now. It's been a hard day for me and it doesn't seem to be getting easier.

He's not replying my message nor online. Don't even feel like posting anything now. So dead inside. Will be back if I feel better.

I am honestly not feeling any better but I really feel like blogging. So he is mad at me, therefore ignoring me for somewhat 24 hours. I cannot tolerate with it anymore. Sent him a message and he online telling me that he's angry at me. That really pissed me off and I started scolding. I know I shouldn't but I am really angry. So he can ignore me all he wants just because he's angry and I am supposed to be left here, miles apart, sitting here, wondering what the hell is wrong? You're not in that situation you won't know how that feels or hurts. I effing hate that.

Gonna write more on my diary. I'm off to bed now. Without any lunch nor dinner. This has to be my best day yet.

XOXO,
Nathalie