"Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine."
It's not easy... Being told that you're a shame and insult to someone. Being told that you're never ever gonna be good enough no matter how hard you try. It's even harder when it used to be something you're so good at. The best, in fact. Now, it's all crumbling down. It all came down so easily... Without even a sign of notice.
Dear bloggie, sorry again for leaving you for quite a while.
I'm pretty sure most people know I play the piano and not trying to brag or anything, but I'm pretty darn good at it. I used to get a lot of concert, recitals, awards, 1st prizes, even being invited to play at Sabah's ABRSM High Scorers' Concert. That's how good I am. Yet now, everything just went down and wrong. I didn't nailed my recital yesterday and my teacher just said this IN MY FACE "You're a great big shame to me. I had never EVER had a student that played as BADLY as you."
Of course I cried. I mean, come on, being the best once and now being told you're a shame? How bad things could be?! I literally, frigging cried my eyes out. I had never cried so much in my life. Not being an attention seeker here but since this is my blog, I had rights to say whatever I like and want and if you think I'm pathetic than get the eff off my blog.
Everything is going down all at once and at a very bad timing. I know God wouldn't give me any problem that I couldn't handle, but sometimes I wished He hadn't trust me as much. Exams, exams, assessments, piano, racism issues, everything, just hit me right in the face, ALL at once!
So yea, God, I'm telling my problems how big You are. Please scare them off.
XOXO,
Nathalie
It's not easy... Being told that you're a shame and insult to someone. Being told that you're never ever gonna be good enough no matter how hard you try. It's even harder when it used to be something you're so good at. The best, in fact. Now, it's all crumbling down. It all came down so easily... Without even a sign of notice.
Dear bloggie, sorry again for leaving you for quite a while.
I'm pretty sure most people know I play the piano and not trying to brag or anything, but I'm pretty darn good at it. I used to get a lot of concert, recitals, awards, 1st prizes, even being invited to play at Sabah's ABRSM High Scorers' Concert. That's how good I am. Yet now, everything just went down and wrong. I didn't nailed my recital yesterday and my teacher just said this IN MY FACE "You're a great big shame to me. I had never EVER had a student that played as BADLY as you."
Of course I cried. I mean, come on, being the best once and now being told you're a shame? How bad things could be?! I literally, frigging cried my eyes out. I had never cried so much in my life. Not being an attention seeker here but since this is my blog, I had rights to say whatever I like and want and if you think I'm pathetic than get the eff off my blog.
Everything is going down all at once and at a very bad timing. I know God wouldn't give me any problem that I couldn't handle, but sometimes I wished He hadn't trust me as much. Exams, exams, assessments, piano, racism issues, everything, just hit me right in the face, ALL at once!
So yea, God, I'm telling my problems how big You are. Please scare them off.
XOXO,
Nathalie
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