Paranoid

"Depressed people think they know themselves, but maybe they only know depression."

I swear, I'm in my most paranoid state right now! All of a sudden, I'm so so so worried about my health problems. I am really freaking out. And when I Google something to look for answers, it only makes me even more worried! I can't really say my problem here due to the fact it's kind of a girls problem. I really wish I can talk to someone experienced right now. I even feel like going to the doctors and have this sort out. It's driving me crazy! Sometimes, I tell myself it's normal, and sometimes I tell myself I should probably check it up. Arghhh!! I hate being a girl sometimes! Just the other day, I found out that breast cancer symptoms doesn't necessarily starts with a lump but it can also be itchiness around your breasts, and that totally freak me out. The next day, I found out the chances of teenage girls getting breasts cancer is not as high as grown women.

Sighhh... I seriously got more and more worried when I start caring about my well-being. I felt like I haven't really take good care of myself all these while and now I am so so so scared of cancer. For absolutely no reasons!

So, as you all know, I only have 2 more nights left! I'll be home soon. So right now, I've done packing up but need to do a check up just in case I forget something. Can't wait. And once I'm back, I'll seriously go for a FULL body check up. Take blood samples, urines or whatever. Just tell me I'm normal and healthy!

XOXO,

Nathalie