2010

"You may not always end up where you thought you were going but you will always end up where you were meant to be."

2010, such a life changing year. From the beginning to the end, I definitely lived my life to the fullest this year. Hardworking all year long, overcoming some very hard obstacles, loving him to the fullest, caring about others to the max and also appreciating what God has given me. This is a real tough year.

Tough as in challenging and this year has certainly brought me to the edge of my limits. At the beginning of the year, I not only have to put up with a certain someone, but also life changing decisions, coming to New Zealand. It all happened together and it is definitely a hard time and I found it really hard to get over it. Especially when I am also trying to get the best results I could during the beginning of the year so I could get into Cambridge High School and make sure I am qualified. All while fixing up my broken heart. I am ever so thankful to God that He sent Jeh Wen during that time, to accompany me through my worst time, leaving my broken heart to him so I could concentrate on my studies. As I really had to leave my home, family and friends, it's yet another life changing moments. 2010 has really matured me in ways I've never thought I would. I see the world in a whole other aspect. They always say that the world out there, it's nothing like High School, people don't compete for good results anymore, but compete for success. People don't cheat to get a shortcut to good results anymore, but backstab you and bring you down so they could get into your position. I may be still at High School, but I have definitely got a taste of reality as I am no longer in the comfort of home. I am all alone in this world that's a complete stranger to me. I have support, but not physically anymore, but far away and mentally. The world is cruel, and I for one, agree.

I not only have to face problems alone, but also face long distance relationship, yet another challenge. Don't tell me that I know nothing about life. Even though it might be as much as other people, I definitely have my own taste of life and I know, what my life is all about. Recently, I have to put up with yet another challenge. Standing up to my close friend. Alejandra. As you all know that things changed when she moved in, and I started to notice more and more of her true-side. I have no rights in judging people but I have the rights to stay away from people I no longer trust. I finally lost all my trust in her. She purposely made up stories just to make me look bad and trying to put the blame on me. She claimed her money was stolen twice at school and I've never believed a word she say about that. Firstly, I know that all international students have absolutely NO NEED in stealing people's money. Not saying that I am rich or whatsoever, but all international students have a certain wealth if they are able to leave home and study at a foreign country. Secondly, I was always with her and she's always with her bag. So if her money was stolen, who's gonna be the first suspect? Me. Happened twice. Now here's the most interesting part of the story, my homestay parents lost $40 in a week and someone has clearly stole it. They believed me fully tho, but they are very suspicious about Alejandra. I don't have to steal and I don't steal. That's the last thing I would do. Plus, I am going in days! What for do I still need NZ dollars?? I would rather steal RM than NZD now. Not saying that I will but it's just a statement. Anyway, my homestay therefore ask us to check our wallets if we lost any money as well. I didn't but she did. And I stay right next to her room and I am constantly staying in my room nowadays as I need to study, so again, she's trying to put the blame on me. Now the fun part, this morning, I woke up earlier than her, as always and my host mom talked to me about the incident, we both found it extremely hilarious that she lost her money because nobody has been into her room and she's the only who's been in and out of her room. So how in the world her money was stolen? Unless someone in the house sleepwalk and do stuffs that none of us know. I never ever go into her room because she is downright the most dirty and disgusting person I've known. Waking up in the morning not brushing her teeth and still in her pajamas and then go watch tv, SHE CAN STAY IN HER PAJAMAS FOR THE WHOLE FREAKING DAY! So imagine, if she does this everyday, imagine how stinky does her room smells and her pajama smells! She doesn't even bother to take a shower in the morning! Ughh... So end of statement, I will never go into her room. Not in a million years.

XOXO,

Nathalie