300th Post~

Hello my darlings. To celebrate my 300th post, I decided to redo my blog layout all over again. Well maybe not necessarily all over but I did customized my own background this time. And I am proud to say that it looks awesome. I hope you love the new layout as much as I do.

Let's get to the main point why I'm blogging. It's because I can't find anyone to talk to. Sad but true.

It's so weird to think that it's my second year here in New Zealand and that I should be stronger and probably got used to the fact that I'm away from home. But I'm not. I am not even in the slightest way happy here. I have never felt being happy since I came back here during February. I don't look forward to school anymore. I don't look forward going home anymore. I just stayed in my room all day. Wishing all these annoying and sad feelings will go away.

There is a reason behind this of course. Things changed. People changed. I no longer see my best friends from last year at school anymore. I no longer go places with them anymore. I am all left alone here. Dump. As if nobody gives a damn about it. It's such a lonely thing. Mind you, I do try to make new friends. But I don't seem to fit in well. Maybe I still need time. But just maybe.

And I'm NOT trying to have people pity me or whatever. That's why I don't give a damn right now. I've been spending time all alone during lunch time, with a book in my hand as a sign to everybody that I don't mind being alone. When inside I'm crying out for some accompany by people.

Okay. This whole post is making me even more self-pity. I'll stop here.

I'll be strong,

Thalie.C