Experience

Call it positive or optimistic or whatever. All I can think of right now is that God is testing me. I have been through a lot of things. I have been through a lot of broken friendships, I have been through a lot of broken hearts, I've got cheated one, I've been unfaithful, I've been literally threaten by my ex-lover, I am in a long distance relationship, I've gone through a lot of family issues which I actually didn't mentioned to anyone but at one point, I thought I was going to be in a broken family...

Being here as a student who is studying Psychology, I have come to a point where every hardship I face is a test from God. I want to think that God is giving me these experiences so that I can be in the shoes of different people. I would like to think that God is giving me so much so that I can understand and actually comfort people through His words. 

Everybody knows how much I love my books. I literally, take such a good care of my books, that it looks like a brand new one. I have only just found out, after my parents have been home for a week now, that during their delay from Aussie back home, that my books have got wet under the rain. I am beyond devastated. Honestly, I have never felt so heartbroken. 

I know it's stupid to be so upset over material stuffs, but my books meant a lot more than that to me. You see, my books were my comfort when I'm down, I can just pick one up and I'll be in a whole other world which, for a moment, makes me forget the problems I'm facing in reality. I know it sounds cheesy but it's true. 

People are telling me that I can get brand new ones and don't be too upset about it. Yes, I get that too. But you see, I don't want to waste that money. And to be honest, you don't always get lucky and get all those books again. Buying new ones makes me feel like a brat too. Some might even be limited edition, who knows?!

Sigh... If this was a test from God then I gotta admit, it's a pretty tough one. 

Love,

Nathalie