So, according to my lecturer Chris, it's International Sleep Day today! Now I have an excuse to sleep longer every March 16th! And picture above is a very cute picture of *cough* MY Jin Woon oppa sleeping.
I have been a fan of 2AM for quite a while, so your argument about me not knowing anything about 2AM only of their new song "I Wonder If You Hurt Like Me" is invalid. And yes, I did went crazy about Seul Ong at first, but I DID not changed target to Jin Woon because he was at Dream High 2. #bitchplease.jpg My favorite 2 has always been Seul Ong and Jin Woon. Again, your argument is invalid.
To be honest, I don't even know why I'm explaining that. #okay.jpg
Moving on!
The boyfie has agreed to get me their album for my birthday!!
About my last post, I have been ranting how tired I am. I'm starting to realize it's very much true. I go to bed really late and trying to get myself up is a real pain. I tend to fall asleep during lectures *which is not good*, and I'll feel energetic during the night. I feel really really guilty and bad for this bad habit. I study a lot. I really do. In fact, I have never studied so much in my life. I keep pushing myself and telling myself that I need to pass and I don't only need to pass, but I have to be an A+ student. I really want to succeed. I want to be a psychologist badly and in order to be that, I HAVE to study Masters. Which is hard if you don't have good grades.
So lately, these thoughts started to sink in.
"Why didn't I have a gap year and just relax?"
"Why do I have to study so much?"
"Why can other people finish their studies in 3 years but I have to go on for 6 years?"
"What if I change my course?"
Those thoughts really beat the crapped out of me.
I started giving myself reasons to procrastinate and be ignorant.
I have never felt so weak! It's only the 3rd week and I'm already having a hard time breathing! Literally! I tried having coffee the other day only to find out that I have the same case like my brother, we both have asthma when we're young, therefore having caffeine only increases my heart rate so much that I had hard time breathing.
Can you believe it?!
The only thing that keeps me awake, is killing me too!
I pray a lot. I do. I know that it's tough therefore I pray to God.
Although I am still yet to win my battle with my thoughts, I know that God is on my side. And with Him along, I feel like I can go on...
How have your days been, my love ones?
I wish you all, the very best.
If there's anything you wanna share, just leave a comment below. :) I'm more than happy to share.
Love,
Nathalie
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