Saturdays without you

"Fight for the one you love. Fight for your future. Be a hero for your love."

Okay. So I'm losing more and more and MORE followers on Twitter. Due to what reason? I simply have no idea. Yet, some part of me feels disappointed and another part of me feels "It's okay". Probably because I knew that dear wouldn't like me being so in the public. See, my world revolves around him now and whatever I do, I put his feelings first in line. Again, this is good and also kinda bad. Bad only because God is the one who should always comes first. Therefore, from now on, I am going to tweet more inspirational quotes than personal quotes. This way I get to help spread God's words in the mean time not being too public and also might even stop followers from unfollowing me.

For the past couple of days, I have been in the most stressful and depressed moments yet. It's hard to get up somehow but since exam is coming, I really should stop mucking around. I don't have the time to be sad nor be upset or anything. Deb is right, if I am determined enough, I would never asked to go home next year. Am I giving up so easily? I used to thought I am strong enough to withheld any sadness or homesickness, guess I kinda over estimate myself.

Mom always tell me that no matter where I go or what I do, I should never ever leave God. Sadly, I know I did and I have always asked for God's forgiveness but I will always tend to go back to my old ways. I really want to change and I am still trying. If God has never deserted me, then why should I do that to God? Who else could actually love me more than my Heavenly Daddy? He took cared of me more better than anyone ever could and as a daughter, I felt deeply regret for being such a bad child. So from now on, I will try hard to pray every day and night, go to church on Sunday if possible and remember God's words in my heart.

To all fellow Christians out there,

if you fell the same as I do, let's pray together and be strong. Do our daily exercise every day by walking with our Lord. God bless.

XOXO,

Nathalie