Times like these

"Time is just not enough"

I've been thinking a lot on the plane, before boarding the plane and after boarding the plane. A lot has been going through my mind. I can't help but realize that even though I'll be back probably a month later, it's still hard to accept the fact that I'm leaving again. It sucks as. I used to think that leaving is the best solution to my unsolved problems, but the truth is, it's not. It's not even the slightest way to solve any of my problems.

Few reasons I think that makes leaving a lot harder than the last time. Firstly, Jeh Wen. Of course I miss him terribly and after spending almost 6 months apart from each other and finally together again, it's just makes separation even harder. We've been apart for about 6 months and we only get the chance to spend not more than 3 weeks together and now I have to pack and leave again. Don't get me wrong, I am utterly grateful that I get to spend even just an hour with him. I am darn content. But, it will be harder. Especially now that we've been together through hard times and good times. Secondly, I miss my brother as well. That little fellow never ever fail to make me smile. Thirdly, my best friends. Nicole, Deb, Garry and Soo. God, do I ever so miss them. I had a wonderful day out with them and it's just awesome. Just like the good ol' days.

To those whom I didn't get the chance to spend time with. My sincere apologies. But I am in NO WAY being proud or mean or whatever you call it. Bitchy. I am NOT. I just don't have the time to go and look for each and everyone of you because I really have been busy since I'm back. My schedule is tight as. If you're my friend, you should understand that. And hey, whoever made the rule that I have to come looking for you first? Can't you come and look for me instead? If you really want it so badly to see me, you could have come and look for me. But you didn't. So I don't care if you're pissed off or anything cause you definitely don't have the rights to. As I say, if you want so badly to see me, Facebook message or call me or anything.

XOXO,

Nathalie