后来

“你不知到我为什么离开你。”

Firstly, a sincere sorry that I deleted my previous video. My reason is that I am not able to do things behind Jeh Wen's back and it made me feel so guilty. So I had to delete it. Don't get me wrong though, I enjoyed thoroughly doing the video. From filming, to editting, to adding voice overs. It's the best thing I have done for a year. It felt really good and bad at the same time. I know it's pathetic for some of you who seriously don't like being controlled by boyfriends, but, I cannot lose him. That's like the only choice I got.

Moving on... I am so upset with myself. Do I appear to be immature, childish and naive to everyone? Is that what everyone thinks of me? That my thoughts are stupid? I am just so upset right now that I don't really know what to say. I wanted so badly to appear mature, to grow up, but it seems like every time I tried, I appear to be more naive. So how am I suppose to be a grown up? Seriously. Tell me. I am so tired with myself...

XOXO,

Nathalie