Gonna get myself up

"Sometimes you just need to be with the person who makes you smile. Even if it means waiting."

My worries are all over... Well, not exactly. But my relationship worries are. Yes, just in case you didn't know, my relationship was kinda going down hill for the past few days, or so I think. But it's all better now. After talking to Debs, I felt so much better. I guess I've over estimated some people and that I forgot the fact that we're all human as well. I cannot be anyone but myself. I cannot please everyone. I am human and I have my weak spot as well. We all have our own flaws and that's make us special and extraordinary.

I am so caught up with my exams, which is tomorrow, that I didn't even know that I'm actually stressed up and my mood swings starts to kick in. I tend to think that he doesn't care about me when it's actually me being very needy and looking for support wherever possible. So after spending some time calming down and send a message to him telling him about my problems. My worries are finally over. I have always wanted to be this independent, strong and mature girl to him. I don't want him thinking that I'm immature or whatever. But after talking about our feelings, he told me this :" mature no mature u r still my baby, ok?" Honestly, was my worries even there? I am seriously looking for worries when it doesn't even exist. I feel completely at ease now and can finally concentrate on my studies again.

Now, it's time to fight for my future. All the best to all SPM students and also all NCEA students.

XOXO,

Nathalie