In Memory of...

Before you read on, I think its fair that I warn you that its going to be a very emotional post, and when I say very, I meant like heavy stuffs, that just sinks you to the bottom of my emotional sea. If that even make sense. 

Last Wednesday, I received a very devastating Skype call from my mom, telling me that it might be my very last time to see my cat, Bubbles, alive. And well, she wasn't kidding, because after a few hours, it turns out my beloved pet cat, really left, for good. The only reason why I'm saying "for good", its because Bubbles have been suffering from being ill and unhealthy for quite a few months, and the whole family is broken by the fact that Bubbles still insisted on fighting on for his little life, and refused to give in. But at the same time, its a very heart breaking fact, cause we all know how much he suffered. 

So yes, it is a relief for us, that he finally left. 

Cause he wasn't getting any better. 

After Bubbles departure, I have come to realization with a lot of things that are happening in my life. Things that I don't even care or even bothered to give the slightest glance at. This sounds quite cliche as in "Dude, its only a cat, and you realized the meaning to life? Like woah, hold up bro". I know, even as I'm typing this, I feel like I'm being a little overboard, but please, bear with me. 

The only reason why I'm feeling so, its because I have been accumulating a lot of things, picking up pieces here and there, but not really putting them together. In a sense, Bubbles is the last puzzle piece, and now, everything is crystal clear. Bubbles death was my breaking point, but also my wake up call. 

I won't go into the boring details of that, but as of now, I challenge myself each day with this question. 

"When Jesus returns, will I be able to stand in front of Him, all proud and faultless, telling Him that I have done EVERYTHING and gave my ALL I could in my life, with the talents and gifts that He has so graciously bestowed upon me?" 

Some point in our life, we are bound to ask ourself, "whats the purpose of my life" or say things like "I have to live life to the fullest". But what is this so-called "purpose" and "fullest"? How do you define those words? 

Especially "fullest".

To what extent, does that word mean to you?

Maybe instead of FULLEST, we should be looking on what we have, and giving it back to our Lord who has given it to us. Most of us, well actually, everyone of us, are special in our own way. No one in this world is exactly the same, we are made and built to be different. We possess different qualities, different talents and different gifts. But are you confident enough to say you've done all you can with these qualities? 

Its like exam. 

Did you gave it your all? 

I guess thats all I have for this post :)

And for my sweet Bubbles, I shall see you in Heaven. 

You will always be missed. 

Yours truly,

Nathalie